I had the worst night ever two nights agoo. I smoked weed for the first time, I felt fine the first coupleof minutes then I had a full blown panick attack I literally thought I was gonna die. I didn’t want to wake up my mom bc she told me the first time she smoked she also had a panick attack so I didn’t want her to be like “I told you so” so I was freaking out while my friend who was high and he was laughing and it was freaking me out more and my mouth felt dry and numb it was so bad I was so close to drowning myself in my bath tub
i was gonna make an About Me bUT I FORGOT HOW TO
in the meantime, just ask me what you wanna know and i’ll include in my about me page once i figure out how to make one.
things are going to be bad again and I don’t even care anymore.
i can’t talk about my feelings i cant even write about my feelings
because when i think about it i feel so stupid and hopeless
i just ate 3 plates of food
imagine how i feel right now
IM ACTUALLY REALLY DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW BC I JUST ATE BE PREPARED FOR TRIGGERING PICTURES
I love british people! My sisters bestfriend is from the UK and her mom is here and their accents are so cutee! And They’re so polite! I love them so much aw omg
going to school
i look like a whale
also, i have to talk to my crush today
my friends are mean for forcing me to do this ;c
note to self: stop eating, dude.
When i think about him i get all sad because why would he ever like someone like me?
MOM CAN YOU STOP TELLING PEOPLE IM ANGRY BECAUSE I DIDNT TALK TO MY CRUSH TODAY JUST STOP YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH
I MIGHT EVEN OVERDOSE TONIGHT BYE IM MAD LEAVE ME ALONE
We have to do Chin-ups today in p.e lol let’s hope my arms don’t fall off.
Whine and complain about how I’ve gained so much weight and cry bc I’m ugly and no one likes me I’m stupid and I don’t want to go to school anymore bc I’m too fat I just want to kill myself I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
me for the next 3 weeks:
Starves, cuts, hopefully not binge if I do ill purge, workout, cry, try to not kill myself